Letting go

A very bitter, personal blow last week made it clear that I need to cap this particular forum and move on - not important to detail it, but one of those times when I realized I have been wrapped in some delusional escape for so long I didn't realize I was burning a candle, keeping something alive, cutting myself unconsciously from other opportunities for something that was long past relevance for anyone involved.   The irony is not lost on me that the trajectory of this blog recently has trended to the obituary, as I suppose it has become one in and of itself.   The obituaries themselves I want to keep here in sincerest testimony to my loved ones and friends that have passed on.  If anyone has stopped here and read, I wish you peace and joy.

The ball drops at Crzy Strngr

Holidays just melted by, and haven't felt the pull to write anything on this forum.  I have been a lot more disciplined getting into the studio and trying to put something down every day, usually 20-30 bar loops with 3-5 tracks, in Reason (Propellerhead Reason, that is) and then using them to play over for an extended period.  It's been interesting to approach these with no guitar at all - I have always written "guitar first", however despite a knowledge/playing level on keyboard of "zero" I'm finding it easier and easier to initiate from the controller.  Feels more creative than just noodling or practicing scales, but now am becoming more concerned that I never carry anything to completion, and will eventually hit a wall with my technical limitations.  In any case,  I certainly have a body of work after a few months that is interesting to listen to and play over. 

Case in point, New Years Eve 2016; kids both out at different locations for the night, S didn't make it past 11pm I met 2017 truly alone - with the track below, kind of ambient one-chord thing, sounding a bit like an orchestra tuning up...but that's just what came out.  Happy New Year,

https://soundcloud.com/mark-bray-591177289/dec-31-2016-11-54